so... so.... fucked up & need you here to think

Silent tears stream down my face,
As i'm wishing for you,
In this cold, dark place,
Sitting alone, so cold, so hurt,
My head's a mess,
As is my heart,
You think you know, you never will,
I want you so,
My soul lies still,
But you don't know,
I cry for you,
Though it don't show,
I'd die for you,
I feel so far,although I'm not,
I feel so close,
I've lost the plot,
If I tell you,
Things will change,
If i don't,
I'll stay at point blank range,
I'm way too close and yet, too far,
To explain,
How special you are.
“I guarantee it won't be easy. I guarantee that at one point or another, one of us is going to want to leave. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to stay with me, I am going to regret it for the rest of my life, because I know in my heart, you are the only one for me.”